I've missed your reflections - so happy to see you in my inbox today! Also, are you a Sag?? I'm a Pisces! I find that I always vibe with Sag's xo.

I've been going through a transition too, and also found myself getting exhausted by the habit of constantly searching. I've realized that what I want is quite simple: love. The feeling of love in my heart, of being loving, and also being loved.

I just recently acknowledged this to myself and already I feel lighter and freer everyday! Because I can finally see that it's not the things/people/places that I want, it's *love* - and I really don't need anything to happen to feel this way. Love begins from within :)

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Happy Sag szn ♐️ Finally our time!

What do I think is missing?

Being 24 is such a weird age. And being such a mature 24 year old has its days. Right now I feel like I'm missing clarity on what to do with my career next. I don't want to continue what I'm doing and I've already achieved my undergrad career goal. Now I'm looking around at everyone else, praying to God, and trying to figure out how I'm going to make everything work.

What am I searching for?

Clarity within myself. I want to be able to fully trust myself to make whatever decision and stick beside it. Self confidence.

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Nov 25, 2022Liked by Natasha Helwig

Searching is part of the human experience. AS a "Practicing Roman Catholic" (Meaning, I'm WORKING ON IT every day) I find peace in prayer and QUIET contemplation. I don't have that rushed feeling anymore and all those Bucket list items I used to have for travel have fallen by the wayside. That is, if I get to them SOME day, great. But if I don't, it will be because I was doing something else more worthwhile to my immortal soul and living in the PRESENT moment. Thanks Tash :)) <3

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Nov 10, 2022Liked by Natasha Helwig

Whenever there is this feeling of seeking, I find that I go back to old journal entries to remind myself of the journey I have been on and my current place in that journey.

As cliché as this sounds, “we live and we die. Everything in between is life” in my thoughts all I’m truly seeking is life with vitality and meaning.

Thank you for curating this piece. It helped me go into a state of reflection.

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