I've missed your reflections - so happy to see you in my inbox today! Also, are you a Sag?? I'm a Pisces! I find that I always vibe with Sag's xo.
I've been going through a transition too, and also found myself getting exhausted by the habit of constantly searching. I've realized that what I want is quite simple: love. The feeling of love in my heart, of being loving, and also being loved.
I just recently acknowledged this to myself and already I feel lighter and freer everyday! Because I can finally see that it's not the things/people/places that I want, it's *love* - and I really don't need anything to happen to feel this way. Love begins from within :)
it's alllllll about love. I wish more people knew or would accept this. I think if more of us put down the search we would realize - as you have - that what we want is love and the more we give to others as an act of love, the more we will receive. And yasssss girl I'm a Sag! My partner is a Pisces, I think our signs just understand each other's depth and willingness to explore :)
Being 24 is such a weird age. And being such a mature 24 year old has its days. Right now I feel like I'm missing clarity on what to do with my career next. I don't want to continue what I'm doing and I've already achieved my undergrad career goal. Now I'm looking around at everyone else, praying to God, and trying to figure out how I'm going to make everything work.
What am I searching for?
Clarity within myself. I want to be able to fully trust myself to make whatever decision and stick beside it. Self confidence.
phew girl, you gave a word with this! This must be a Sag thing because I too am struggling to arrive at a place of clarity when it comes to my career.
Your last line stands out to me tho: "trust myself to make a decision and stick beside it"...
What if it's reframed to "trust myself enough to try something new" and being okay if it doesn't stick?
I think part of the discovery of clarity is in the flow - release the pressure of it needing to stick, you know what I mean? Especially as a creative/artist - and then add in our Sag energy - the "sticking to it" part takes the fun out of the exploration and in turn can make it feel daunting...
Searching is part of the human experience. AS a "Practicing Roman Catholic" (Meaning, I'm WORKING ON IT every day) I find peace in prayer and QUIET contemplation. I don't have that rushed feeling anymore and all those Bucket list items I used to have for travel have fallen by the wayside. That is, if I get to them SOME day, great. But if I don't, it will be because I was doing something else more worthwhile to my immortal soul and living in the PRESENT moment. Thanks Tash :)) <3
Whenever there is this feeling of seeking, I find that I go back to old journal entries to remind myself of the journey I have been on and my current place in that journey.
As cliché as this sounds, “we live and we die. Everything in between is life” in my thoughts all I’m truly seeking is life with vitality and meaning.
Thank you for curating this piece. It helped me go into a state of reflection.
I love this about you - that you write and revisit your writing. I write, but I don't often revisit it. I think there are parts of me that don't want to dive back into the journey of it all and just want to continue moving forward. How do you see 'life'?
I've missed your reflections - so happy to see you in my inbox today! Also, are you a Sag?? I'm a Pisces! I find that I always vibe with Sag's xo.
I've been going through a transition too, and also found myself getting exhausted by the habit of constantly searching. I've realized that what I want is quite simple: love. The feeling of love in my heart, of being loving, and also being loved.
I just recently acknowledged this to myself and already I feel lighter and freer everyday! Because I can finally see that it's not the things/people/places that I want, it's *love* - and I really don't need anything to happen to feel this way. Love begins from within :)
it's alllllll about love. I wish more people knew or would accept this. I think if more of us put down the search we would realize - as you have - that what we want is love and the more we give to others as an act of love, the more we will receive. And yasssss girl I'm a Sag! My partner is a Pisces, I think our signs just understand each other's depth and willingness to explore :)
Happy Sag szn ♐️ Finally our time!
What do I think is missing?
Being 24 is such a weird age. And being such a mature 24 year old has its days. Right now I feel like I'm missing clarity on what to do with my career next. I don't want to continue what I'm doing and I've already achieved my undergrad career goal. Now I'm looking around at everyone else, praying to God, and trying to figure out how I'm going to make everything work.
What am I searching for?
Clarity within myself. I want to be able to fully trust myself to make whatever decision and stick beside it. Self confidence.
phew girl, you gave a word with this! This must be a Sag thing because I too am struggling to arrive at a place of clarity when it comes to my career.
Your last line stands out to me tho: "trust myself to make a decision and stick beside it"...
What if it's reframed to "trust myself enough to try something new" and being okay if it doesn't stick?
I think part of the discovery of clarity is in the flow - release the pressure of it needing to stick, you know what I mean? Especially as a creative/artist - and then add in our Sag energy - the "sticking to it" part takes the fun out of the exploration and in turn can make it feel daunting...
let me know your thoughts
sending you love on the journey xo
Searching is part of the human experience. AS a "Practicing Roman Catholic" (Meaning, I'm WORKING ON IT every day) I find peace in prayer and QUIET contemplation. I don't have that rushed feeling anymore and all those Bucket list items I used to have for travel have fallen by the wayside. That is, if I get to them SOME day, great. But if I don't, it will be because I was doing something else more worthwhile to my immortal soul and living in the PRESENT moment. Thanks Tash :)) <3
I appreciate you taking the time to read these and offer your perspective. It means a lot to me. xo
Whenever there is this feeling of seeking, I find that I go back to old journal entries to remind myself of the journey I have been on and my current place in that journey.
As cliché as this sounds, “we live and we die. Everything in between is life” in my thoughts all I’m truly seeking is life with vitality and meaning.
Thank you for curating this piece. It helped me go into a state of reflection.
I love this about you - that you write and revisit your writing. I write, but I don't often revisit it. I think there are parts of me that don't want to dive back into the journey of it all and just want to continue moving forward. How do you see 'life'?